Delay of Game

Geez, two months since my last post. Since January 1, I've helped try a case (we won huge) and been severely humbled (humiliated?) in the process, gotten approved as a future UPS Store franchisee, felt my excitement about that wane with additional information about the success of such stores, prepared to put my car and house on the market, jonesed on a Jeep Wrangler Sahara (you will be mine), found carpenter ants and rotted wood behind our master bathroom shower tiles, been on local TV, had my picture in a statewide legal magazine for the January trial (and almost got fired for it), hurt and disappointed my boss at the law firm, attended an amazing missions conference in Waco, gotten excited about the prospect of opening a coffee shop on the corner of our new church building, and put on weight.

In all this time, I have neglected to write a thing here. I sense a pattern in my life: excitement and vision for new things with concomitant spurts of action in accordance with the vision. Yet, before long, my excitement begins to wane to a trickle. Usually at that point, I've gotten excited about a new, new thing, and moved on.

I can see positives in this tendency: it's biblical (Paul was a starter; he formed churches, passed on the leadership to locals, and then moved on to the next place); it's adventurous (the everyday rut drives me crazy and spurs me to action); it's entrepreneurial (without such tendencies, there would be "nothing new under the sun."). Yet, all of these positives require follow-through on the initial excitement and vision: something I have tended to lack. Lord, build in me the "sticktoitiveness" necessary to make a difference in this world. I do not want my life to be a highway road sign but a fork in the road. You are worth my life, time, and efforts.